Wow, thanks! You have summed up my feelings exactly. I will be seeing the Phy about possible med change but I appreciate the suggestions on thought change.

That has always been a challenge for me to wrangle my thoughts, I have a tendency to ruminate and make things worse. I feel the same way about avoiding the news, everything seems to be a report about a death, an abuse, a court trial - basically human tragedy 24/7. That's hard to process when I can't quite handle my own emotions.

Thanks for the support. Even though I feel bad for anyone who is going through the same experience, its comforting to know thats its not just me