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Jun 06, 2012, 11:41 PM
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Member Since: Dec 2011
Posts: 40
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I am starting to wonder if I can ever get back to a period of normalcy. First it was anxiety and depression, and paranoia. After lots of work and meds and therapy I had 2 or 3 better months. Then the anxiety intensified and I had some symptoms of hypomania. All the med changes made me a comatose zombie...So in the midst of what the doctors called a mixed episode and med changes a major drama occurs which involves the (at least temporary) loss of one of my closest support people. This sent me spinning downward in a hurry into a bad depression. One of the ways that I experience bipolar is overly reactive intense emotions to things....worse so when stuff is a big deal to me and extremely upsetting....It's hard for my friends because I am inconsolable. I am trying to do all of the healthy things...sleep, exercise, eat healthy things...go to DBT..etc etc with little relief. Checked in with psych nurse today and they want me to come in to see Pdoc... I hope that this roller coaster is not the new normal. In some ways I think i had it easier when I had no official diagnosis...It's like knowing..opens up the possibility of all kinds of bad...  ...discouraged....feeling alone....
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