So I was studying for my chemistry exam and I just HAD to come across the formula for Lithium Carbonate! (that was yesterday) I spent some 30 seconds just staring at the page, my eyes widening, panic and anxiety growing inside me. Lithium Carbonate was the first med I was given after I was diagnosed with BP. But I was Bipolar II and lithium didn't really work for me. All it did was drain all my energy and leave me slumped in a corner, too tired even to think. Those were among the worst days of my life. I soon changed to depakote which wasn't nearly as bad. But after about two years I started to despise all psychiatric medications, feeling I wasn't really myself when I took them. I stopped taking them exactly one year ago. I've been fine. I have some ups and downs but nothing too worrisome. No severe depressions, no suicidal feelings, no uncontrollable manic episodes. But when I'm reminded of something I almost go through it all over again. And now I can't get Li2CO3 and the experience I had with it out of my head. I feel trapped, restless, anxious, irritable, depressed and lonely. I have to study more chemistry but I just can't concentrate. AND I think more triggering formulae may be lurking around!