I am what most would call a binge user I believe. I don’t use consistently for months or years. I tend to use a weekend here and there. Or been known to use for a week, but that’s the most at a time. I have had more than a year clean in the last eight years.

I know I’m not alone with my addiction, but feel like I am. I’ve never met another binge user. Or anyone addicted to ecstasy. That has been my drug of choice the last eight years. I crave that night life that is associated with it and the acceptance I feel by others. I don’t feel that sober.

I recently used again and have beat myself up because I was doing so well. It’s hard to pick myself up. I now wonder if I’ll ever feel that way again.

It’s a fight..a struggle to get through this. Is there any one else out there that can relate to what I’m going through?