Yes, but not all at once. She had to ask some probing questions.

Also, remember I'm summarising with the benefit of hindsight. Here I condense the cruellest words of a whole session into a single paragraph.

But I guess your real question is, how can I say these mean things to my therapist at all?

Over the years, T has trained me to say whatever comes into my head without censoring it. And I know that she knows that much of what I say about is really about someone else. We accept the reality of transference and just go where it leads.

Therapy becomes very powerful when you reach that level of trust.