I haven't seen any new PMs.

I feel like I am on a roller coaster because after I get mad and want to leave him....I change my mind and want to stay with him. I don't know where I would go and how I would support myself and my kids. They both love him and I am scared of taking them away from the only father they have known.

We had a conversation last night and he said he doesn't see how he is being verbally and emotionally abusive. He says that any woman that stays in an abuse relationship is stupid. He also believes that all women are "dirty hoes" at some point in their life and they are always the ones to cheat and that no matter what the man does it is the woman's fault. When he realized I was really upset by all of this, he said he was just trying to aggravate me and that was not really how he felt. That is really how he feels because he has made many comments over the years saying the same things. I am sad and confused and mad.