i've heard others speak of loving the ambiance that goes with drinking or drug use. in AA it's suggested we stay away from ppl, places and things we associate with our use. it causes a temptation that can be irresistible and sets off our using.
a drug is a drug-alcohol being the granddaddy of them all. ecstacy is very addictive and can be dangerous to use. it's like playing russian roulette.
binge drinking is more common than you're aware of. binging eventually becomes more regulary abusing on more and more days.
i'd suggest u go regularly to NA or AA. it sounds as tho you know u have a problem. you will find support there to assist you in your desire to stop this way of "life" and find a more rewarding life.
i'm glad u posted and i wish you well.