hey, apple. you have a lot of questions and i think they are normal for someone your age.

i sense your life lacks passion. are you doing something for a living that you really enjoy or is it just a job? you have a passion for women but you don't seem to be dating anyone. why not? what are your life goals? what are you working towards? if you don't have goals, your life will lack purpose.

i think it's normal for men to have a hard time crying, even if they are sad. you seem to be a little out of touch with your emotions and feel nothing a lot of the time. what was your childhood like? were your parents warm and nuturing or cold?

i think you may have no clear sense of self because you have not done a lot with your life (yet). though it seems that some people automatically have this sense of self, it's also true that a lot of people do not. you have to go out and do things and meet people to have this sense - in some people it has to develop.

i hope these comments help. if necessary, you might consider seeing a therapist to help you with these isses.