lmn all the stuff you describe about not being able to enjoy the good things you have and being afraid are all just part of the depression.

i feel exactly the same way, it is so hard not being able to enjoy the things i love.

but you shouldn't worry about that just worry about getting better, and you are already taking steps to do that. don't think of it as "I have so many good things in my life how can i be so depressed?" instead you have to realize that it is the depression is the cause and not the effect. "I have so many good things in my life, but I can't enjoy them because the depression won't let me.

Don't give up on the meds. Sometimes it takes a while to find what will work for you. Each person will respond differently to each med. The good news is that there are many new meds and many different kinds of meds now so if one doesn't work there are still plenty of options. You have to have some patience and hopefully a good doctor who will work with you to find the right med and the right dose for you.

I am glad you are in therapy, because the meds alone won't do it by themselves, they only take away the chemical imbalance that makes it impossible for you to feel better on your own. The therapy will help you cope and function better.

Good luck. Keep working on it.

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