You are not alone ((((yellow)))). I am sorry you are hurting.
I miss mine, as well. He's not coming back, either.

I'm learning (with my T) how to comfort myself on these types of occasions so I don't feel so alone and/or afraid and sad.

I know it sounds kind of corny, but my T tells me that since I'm missing out on some things I want/need right now (I"m just in that place), I have to give them to myself. obviously I am working on that one

let us know how you are doing