I was adopted at 6 years old. It is a long story, but I was severely abused, mentally, physically, and sexually (by my birth mom, her bf, my 2 sisters, and brother). I can't sleep, I keep thinking about the past, I am so scared of the dark, of night....I am paranoid someone is going to hurt me, rape me, rob me...anything bad. I hate walking by myself, I always make sure all my windows and doors are locked (even in my bedroom)....I am so paranoid but I can't help it. It is such a huge burden put on me. I have so many nightmares and am becoming miserable! I am going to therapy now, but I don't see how this will help. they may be able to tell me techniques of how to stay calm, but they can't take it away. I always tell family and friends my experiences made me stronger, but it didn't! I am tired of lying to myself, to everyone around me. I wish that I could put the people who abused me away forever. i wish justice could be served, but it will never be. It happened in the Republic of Georgia (country), and there is nothing I can do about it now. In addition, the agency that I was adopted from didn't even tell my parents my background. I am very upset about how things were done, and just wish I could forget it all.