I don't feel a connection to my mom. Around 1st grade my mom was cheating on my dad. She had the affair for years. That man sexually abused me for years. I wasn't his 1st victim. I think my mom knew about the others so she went to ask me about. I didn't tell her what he was doing to me. i didnt understand what she was asking at that time. she breaks out the affair, I tell and then i get some counseling. Cont. in a bit.