Hang in there. yes you will always know that you were abused but it does get better. Some day you will be sitting there having a good time and suddenly realize that you have not been in any pain for days from the memories of abuse. As for OCD and panic attacks they can be controlled by medication and relaxation techniques so again it does get better. Even the eating disorder can get better if you want it to. Look at all the celebs that have come out of the closet about eating disorders for example the woman that used to play the teen age girl character on growing pains - tracy Gold. now she has survived anerexia with treatment and got married and has a child now to raise. If you really want to heal from all your problems then you WILL heal. it takes deturmination and work like anything else good in life but if you want it and work at it you can have the life you want to have. So hang in there.

As for the boyfriend being enough only you can decide that. a friend once told me A relationship is only as good as the work put into it like learning how to get along with eachother dispite flaws and being willing to bend at times for good relationships involve both sides compromizing and so on. And only the two in that relationship can answer as to if they are willing to put in the work, time and compromising needed for the relationship to last and whther or not they love each other enough to help each other through thick and thin.

Take care.