My son is only two, so thankfully I haven't had to "hide" things from him yet. I know on my bad days I interact with him very little and rely heavily on the tv to entertain him. It makes me feel bad/like an awful mom, especially when he wants attention and I avoid him (escape behind stuffed animals that he's scared to go past), but I know that although it's not the ideal situation, it is better than me allowing myself to get too broken to think logically. It's especially hard being so far from family and friends. We just have to do the best we can, and try to remember that children are resilient and can survive most of our mistakes. I think for those of us with mental illness our mistakes tend to be different than the mistakes most other parents make. Good news is it makes us much more aware of our children's mental health.