Stopdog - no, I'm not afraid of him; there are many times when he does thoughtful and kind or loving things, too. Sometimes I feel nervous or vulnerable though or not altogether comfortable. Makes me feel like a child back at home and I don't find it pleasant to end up feeling sneaky or furtive. I don't think I've done anything that is shameful/sinful or to be ashamed of and yet I get stuck with that feeling .... induces defensiveness, probably defiance. Yuk.
He feels I have gotten obsessive here. T2 didn't think so, but then H thought perhaps I wasn't honest with her. She thought I was as honest with her as I was with myself and that I was willing to see even harsher truths about myself and deal with them .... said she thought I had good enough judgment to determine if I was being obsessive. He just isn't sure.
Can't blame him. Some days I have posted a lot. Some days I haven't. Some days there are threads/questions that intrigue me a lot and make me think a lot. Some days I feel that I really can help a certain person with a situation I really relate to. Some days I don't. I think I have a healthy balance (I used to not where PC was concerned), but recognize it's possible for it to seem that I don't, looking at only a part of the picture. T2 said balance is a matter of perception, as is the question of obsession/or not obsession.
I will try harder and more sincerely to avoid the appearance of obsession!
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