this was her reply..

~~~ Hello suzzie. Perhaps your connection to friends and like minded people will be through the writing and readings of poetry. ... it draws an interested, quiet small group of people that you could find quite enjoyable.
See you Monday, hope you have a good week-end.~~~~

im scared of socializing. havent in years. havent barely ever. i cant even look at her or other people. i dont talk. im so uncomfortable around people. doesnt matter if its one person, a few, or lots.

poetry wont make them like me.

why would she suggest something that isnt possible. like its so simple. all i have to do. is join a club or something, last thing on earth i would do.


im afraid of people. im not good enough for them. never will be.

i give up of ever being heard/understood