I feel for you. You just gotta fight and beat it. It sucks to constantly fall and fall and fall and fall and after awhile you wonder why you keep getting up. I wan't to be freaking happy, that is why I keep getting up because I believe one day that I will find it. Some or shall I say most people don't understand it, because they may know struggle but they don't know your struggle. People these days are very judgemental and lack compassion. I am sorry your family dismisses you and hope that you find your place in the world and that depression will stop finding you.