I think we were separated at birth....I hate being a house wife. Hate it. My husband is in the oil field so his work doesn't allow time for me to have a career or go to school. I was in nursing school two years ago, but had to stop going due to a melt down. Five kids, going to school, he's never home..then has a back surgery...was a little too much with my mother in law mixed in. I have managed figuring out how to not cook for the past two weeks. Cleaning people's rooms and doing laundry is like slavery to me. I would offend many of my besties, and my own sister saying this out loud...(so keep it to yourself all....if you don't agree..because I really don't care if you don't)...anyway...to me it's what you do if you can't do anything. And since my husbands work forces me into this situation...I rebel so much about everything. I hate what I do everyday....I feel useless. Next year I will have nothing to do. I suppose I could do what many oil field wives do and work out, play tennis, and have reconstructive surgery....it would be good for almost six weeks, and then I'd want to use my brain again. I wonder why my husband stays with me...I used to think he was crazy, and what was wrong with him??? LOL I will get through the alcohol...it's the smoking I'm worried about. (((((((((Amigdala)))))))