Thank you gretta, youre always such a big help. I havent discussed my concerns with t about the contradictions but did mention the fuzzy feeling when i was in there. I had to write out the date on a paper and was pretty convinced it was may the 7th when i was trying tovfill out the paper, but it didnt sound right. So i asked him "its may right?" He says "i dont know, what day is it?" And i said may 7th right? I thought it was. My head was so fuzzy and i get really confused or lack of memory or something when that happens. So when i saw him looking at me funny after i put in the date, i explained the fuzzy thing. According to him, he believes that some of my parts are co con and have been listening in on the appointments, but who knows? I went on to tell him (this was at the end of the session in about to walk out the door, and as always i accidentally kept him 30 minutes after our scheduled time) i told him about the times that i feel like im being pulled away and in that time, it gets hard to talk or remember or say anything at all so he Says "dont get too complex on me just yet" what the heck? I brought that up with my general practitioner and he was confused by it as well. But the fuzzy head t thinks is in relation to my other parts. And he could be right. I always get headaches before and after my appointments with him, than about 5 minutes into the session and the fuzzy part kicks in. But the headache goes away. Once im out of the office, the fuzz goes away. Although i do get it other times as well (like right now) but in the fuzz, its so hard to remember certain things, and i even say things i normally wouldnt, than i have a very vague memory of it, unless its something that concerns or confuses me. Idk whats going on.

I only know of one part that has a name, becky. There may or may not be others but is it possivle to have parts with no names? And how do they get their names? I only know about becky because of my family, often though, i just dont feel like i have a name, my own given name sounds so foreign when people call me that. So how do parts get a name? I think my t thinks im a paet and not the host... but dont prts have names? He says im the front man(woman) that is out most of the time because people like me. Then went on to tell me about a 300 pound old patient of his who thought he was 12, and his body was really 30. He compared that mans 12 yer old part to me. How do i know if im a host or a part and does it really matter?

I do want to get better so instead of denying, im trying to learn. I fight with all my might to stay out and not let others come out, but i know to heal they have to be heard. So im trying to learn to hopefully build trust and a better understanding within