Are we giving our theme songs now? Because I love music. Mine right now seems to be 'The Point of it All' by Amanda Palmer (it's a rough song, warning you, could be triggering).

"And you're learning that just because they call themselves friends doesn't mean they'll call."

It's a beautiful song, but sad. I relate to it a lot, since my real life friends seem to be dropping like flies now that I'm less able to hide my psychosis. Amanda Palmer actually has a lot of songs I relate to. Mental stuff seems to be a common theme.

Anyway, sorry I've been gone. I've been dealing with heavy stuff in the family, and trying to help keep everything together. I had my EEG earlier this week, so I should be getting some sort of diagnoses within the month. It's...kind of sad when I'm so used to being mentally ill that I'm hoping for schizophrenia as opposed to epilepsy. At least I'm used to identifying as mentally ill. I don't know how I'd deal with the other, or anything 'physical'. And the symptoms are the same anyway, in my case, so...I don't know. I'd rather stay on my current meds than go on the med merry-go-round again by adding anti-convulsants.

Not to mention the fact that even if I do have epilepsy, I'm likely to be diagnosed with a psychotic disorder anyway, since seizures don't account for anything close to all of my symptoms. :/

Funny story though. My voices came back a few nights ago for a short time. Called me 'Rob'. I was all like '....who the heck is Rob?!' I don't even have a boy's name!