Wolfin: You're very welcome. It's important for your T to know this. When you feel this way for your T, it is actually a very good thing because it means that your whatever your T is doing, it's working for you. Talking about it will help you come to understand and know yourself much more. It is very hard to talk about it. You don't have to say it all to your T in one session. If it's too overwhelming, do it slowly. What I've learn is, it's best to say it right away at the beginning of sessions so that T and you have time to discuss it. Don't wait until the end of session or else you're left hanging and that's when it will really feel like you're being rejected. I understand the fear of being rejected. I guess one way you can look at this big revelation you have is a way to see if this is the T who can really work for and with you. I believe that a good T will use these feelings that you're having to help you heal. It's teamwork. Well, I wish you well and know that you can do it.