Made it here...only had 2 pull the car over 3 times bcause of panic attacks. Wish I had someone with me, my moods are all over the place now. Been stable 4 a long time and 4got how scary it all gets when my brain is scrambled. I hate the hospital but I guess most people do. Unfortunately been in some really bad ones and had some really really really bad stuff happen. Sometimes is a nec evil but hope this isn't one of those times. Made a big commitment this summer and absolutely don't have time for a breakdown