Thank you gretta and pegasus, you both have cleared up many questions. Pegasus, that is a great idea. I already bring my journal with me, might as well put it to use. I know systems are different and parts all have different purposes but is it possible that parts know what they are and know eachother within without the main part out knowing? Often lately, and when im under stress i hear kind of a conversation within, people talking to one another, yet never directly to me really. It can be complete nonsense too like i hear a girl say "i cant wait to go to the mall! When are we going?" Then a man replies "you dont need to go to the mall" blah blah blah, just talking that makes no sense. That was the last conversation i heard a few days ago. But we dont have a mall within 40 miles, and no plans of going to the mall. Its really rather confusing and frustrating because this kind of talk keeps me awake at night. Ive heard all different kinds of conversations, especially in the past month since my abusive brother moved back to town. Its gotten so bad it seems like an auditorium of people are all screaming at the same time, but never at me, always at eachother. This doesnt happen as often though and very rarely does any voice direct anything at me. Is this common? For them to have communication but not me?