like aiv713 i too have been there, and in fact am there right now. I have no emotional support at all except from people on this site. looking at the positives or beyond the here and now do help, but there are still times when curling up on my bed with a big soft duvet and cuddly Snowman and just letting the tears flow is the only relief. I used to fight it, hide my feelings even from myself, but a wise therapist once told me that if i feel something it is because i need it, so go with it, accept it is a part of you that needs a bit of TLC (tender loving care). there is nothing wrong in crying when you need to. one thing is for sure when you do not need to you won't!