I, too, would be so sad to not see you on this site! I find you to be a very caring person, and I still remember how welcoming you were to me when I first joined here several months ago! And when you mention how you have this meeting coming up that you are dreading it makes me think that this may be part also of what is upsetting you. I know my mood can be very bad (depression, anxiety, anger, irritablitiy, etc...) when I have something coming up that I am really nervous or scared about. I'm glad you are trying to take it moment by moment. And, in my opinion, there is no such thing as starting too many threads. If you are struggling, we all want to know about it and offer you love and support! At least I do. I, too, missed this post yesterday! I'm glad you are a bit better today.