Hellion,
See if you can do a search online for therapists around your area that treat PTSD. I found my first therapist that way.

I am sorry you are struggling still, I know how that feels and it is way better if you get help. You should not have been embarassed in that mental health center. People who are in the mental health field should know how to help you find direction about getting help for PTSD. Don't be afraid to ask for help Hellion, if you need help, you have to be willing to just ask that is where doors begin to open.

(((Hugs)))
Open Eyes