I know exactly how you feel. In fact I'm having a glass of wine now!
I know I shouldn't be but it helps the pain.
How bad are you with the alcohol? Do you need it daily? I find myself drinking about 3x per week. I have to arrange my drinking for when my kids are out of the house.
Do you have children? Married? Sorry if these are personal questions, you don't have to answer if you are uncomfortable talking about it.