As the others have said - totally normal! I would imagine it's more typical for people to think this way about their T than not. I find that when I am really struggling, sometimes I do like Soup said - and try to imagine what T would say. Sometimes I go as far as calling Ts answering machine, just to listen to the recording. Ts voice has an instant calming effect on me, and has since about 5 months into our work together.

The T relationship is a very strange one, yet a very real one. It's totally one-sided, but it is within that one-sidedness that a mutual respect and understanding can develop, and the trust and safety - it is incomparable! (at least for me!)