I feel really petty for this, I'm 20 years old and ended the first and only relationship of my life about a year and a half ago. I don't, by any means, miss my ex. I miss myself. I feel completely apathetic, and i'd thought by now it would have passed. I feel like i have to fake any emotion just to seem like a normal person. And although i want so badly to feel that bond again, it seems like i just can't. I can't even relate to friends like i did before. When people flirt with me or are really touchy feely it just makes me extremely uncomfortable, almost angry. I don't get excited about new love-interests, and i do try. I give everyone a fair chance, and i'm not shallow. The cutesiness and chivalry i used to melt over just feels really fake and pathetic to me.
Any advice?
I've previously been diagnosed with bipolar and was typically a rapid cycler before. I've felt emotionally numb since two weeks after the break-up.