I have never wanted to do it. I have nothing but hatred and disgust for everything I have ever seen, everything I have ever experienced. From my experience and in my opinion life is definitely not worth living. It has no point, and in my current position I gain no happiness or joy out of anything, not to say that I ever have. I will be glad when I am finally gone.. but until then I do not have what it takes to pursue that effort in a more timely fashion... I hate everything that can be possibly conceived by a being. I hate humanly functions, I hate the need to eat, I hate sleeping, I hate the need to reproduce, I hate it all. If there is a God I hate it with all my heart whatever that may be. Reproducing is the same if not worse than murder. Nice to meet you.