TheSilentEmpath,

Not a day goes by that I do not think to myself "I don't want to live anymore". I know I don't have what it takes to kill myself. I think about all of those things you said in your first post every day. I hate the cycle of life. I hate everything about life. I wish I was never born. I wish that I would never wake up again. Sometimes, like justanotherday, I sometimes listen to the heavy metal, Megadeth, Slayer, but also Metallica, Avenged Sevenfold, Killswitch Engage, Korn and Pantera. Anything that just sort of spits in life's face to try to relieve the pain. But lately I've become so numb I don't even want to listen to anything. I just drive in my car in silence, until I get to work and then carry out my duty of sitting in front of a ******* computer for 8 hours like a zombie and then leaving, not saying a word to anyone.