I love my 2nd T, too ... well, really, it's more like a respect/fond regard, and probably more of an intellectual than an emotional attachment .... but still, there is that feeling and I think it's real enough to be counted as a type of love. What I hate is that I can't keep her as my long-distance T and I'll have to wean myself from calling some point soon (not that I have called so often recently, however, the relationship can't continue in this form indefinitely ...) ... but I do love her for giving her time to me and for investing in me and listening to me on the phone the last few months without the expectation of reimbursement (except that I keep up the good work!). And I love her for both her unconventionality and yet consistent, definite, firm boundaries ... that she has encouraged me to let go yet not made me let go too soon ...