You have written what I too have come to realize, but find trouble verbalizing... It's as if all that focus on 'illness' (bipolar in my case) fed my malfunction, fuelled it, made it so much bigger than I at 1 point! Since I quit T, and meds, and since I quit looking at myself thru a magnifying glass, questioning my every experience and labelling them as symptoms I am MUCH healthier, it feels like I took back my power...
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Ps. I still take very good care of myself, my tools are just not part of the medical model.