I forget if it was ALiens or Alien 3,

But there's a scene where the android Bishop says something to the effect of

"unplug me now, I'll never be what I was"

...

I think that about sums me up. I often feel like the best is gone and over, and I don't know what to do.

Sometimes (often, actually) I think: "please, give me a speedball, a lethal dose of something!"

BUt I really just want to get high, and be able to do the things I used to be able to do...

Thanks