I think for me its not being worth it. I have very low self esteem and a ton of self hate. Im terrified of gaining weight....i feel like unless i loose x amount of lbs then i will be worth less. Like MAYBE if i loose that weight i will be pretty and happy. But its never enough...i'm already underweight, and dropping pretty fast...... but i need to be skinnier. I can't be fat... i just cant.

I am terrified of getting better. Not only because i dont think i am worth it, but im afraid no one will care about anymore because i will be "fixed" if that makes any sense?(jeez it even scares me to say that...i have never said it to anyone)