I got a letter saying I didn't make it into school. It tOld me to take more lessons! I've been crying on and off all day. Took myself to the movies. Non bf isn't coming to give me a hug. I wandered the neighborhood after dark disassociating and took Vicodin to check out. My whole plan to move seems gone. I'm not a good singer anymore. My life means what? And I got little to no comforting today. I thought about drinking but haven't.