My two oldest, ages 8 and 7, are away visiting their dad in Kansas. They called today to say happy father's day to the man who really loves them and takes care of them. I got to talk to them too which was really great but now I am missing them more than ever. I am so afraid that they are not going to want to come home in July. What if they want to stay? I want them to come home now, I have been trying really hard to be supportive of their trip, they don't really know their biological dad, and I don't want to be seen as the bad guy by trying to sabotage it. I don't want my ex to be able to say I did anything wrong. Tomorrow he is taking our son to the Dr's as he thinks hw has bronchitis and it would then be my fault. My son was coughing when he left town but I had the same cough and it was brought on by allergies, but what if he really is sick? I would feel absolutely horrible. I'm just really missing my kids and they won't be home for another 28 days. They have only been gone 1 week and I'm a mess, I need them here. I feel so insecure, my ex could be saying anything to them, I'm sure they are having more fun there as he is so immature and never grew up. He has the mentality of a teenager, that is why we split in the first place. I just keep trying to smile and be ok with them being gone but I feel like there is a big gaping whole in me that won't be healed until I have them in my arms again. Those are my babies and I want them to come home.