I told myself, I didn't need meds anymore. In truth, I lost my car, and have no-one to get me to appts. I tell myself I can do it, be strong, put yourself first. I'm trying so hard. I'm not sleeping, 2hrs here and there. I had a psychotic dream that scared me so bad, I don't want to sleep anyway! I know I will need a Lithium fix soon, I wonder if my GP will help me? I can walk to him. I'm afraid he will give me a hard time, and, I will deep end, I'm so sad, so angry, and so not tired. I know I'll need an anti psychotic for a while, but don't know what? Zyprexa is a big no, and GP won't know what to give me. No fat pills I say! I wish I could see my therapist, I miss him, I called him Jesus, but that wasn't his name. OMG ,my brain is so busy right now, thanks for listening!!