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Originally Posted by MDDBPDPTSD
i have read somewhere to that symptoms do diminish as we age. That has not been my experience. My symptoms were evident in childhood and really intensified in adolescence and my twenties. My thirties and forties my symptoms were still present, but I was able to function throughout most of those years. In my late forties, I crashed. It was due to trauma. At that point, I tried to hang on and for months, I did. But it was all I could do and I eventually was again no longer able to function. I have been that way for years. I am less likely to have the explosions I had as a teen, but I am much more depressed and more easily hurt by others. I am also less likely to trust any humans, myself or others, because I have seen how ugly we can be.
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I can only relate to the childhood and teenage years as Im only 20yrs old, still not officially diagnoses but as I read more and more on bpd I show so many traits some wors than others, not too impulsive at least with the examples given, but I also have severe anxiety. I just don't know what is going to happen everone in my family is telling me that I overthink things and see the worst in every situation, the don't see the fact I really am worried even scared. I just this last semester crased, stress got to me, I wasn't sleeping for more than 3-4hrs for 2 months, started cutting again. I went from a 3.2 at the end of my first year to now a 1.92 acidem. probation and had changed my major in a split sec. decision (hopefully suits me more). And all I get from my family is them telling me that "I lack motivation, lazy, drama queen, sleep too much, that I bring this all (mental illness) onto myself etc." Then they go and say I should seek help for my issues and I need to figure all this out but they fail to see all the "red flags" and they say they are "trying" and "want to help" me but then go and push me aside and lay all their issues on me when I ask for them to help and support me. I love my family dearly but they need to stop with the mixed signals
they send to me, and realize that I need their full support, they tell me to fix myself but deny I have any thing going on such as bpd, bi-polar etc.
