I think there may be some truth in your perceptions but maybe you took it too far. It's the same with my mania. I still believe there are spiritual insights to be found in altered states of mind. The term madness is just a term used to describe an altered stated of mind that deviates from the norm. Normalcy is defined by cultural values. Some cultures valued altered states of mind. Individuals experiencing altered states enjoyed positions of high status in their society. In my state of mania I got carried away and my enthusiasm took me too far. I still struggle with the idea that society need to change and accept a greater variety of human experience welcoming more diverse expressions of human behavior instead of defining it in terms of pathology.