It's irritating that it's too much to reply to everyone individually.
But all of this input helps me and others, and that's what matters.

Being a straight male, I'm not comfortable talking to other men about emotional issues. The reason I don't know. I'd probably be comfortable with a gay male T though. Seems odd to me that I think about it (no offense), maybe it's because I there is a high chance that they would be disarming.

Yes, I admit to being defensive and closed off, which is probably why my relationships burn up before they start (one of the reasons anyway )

Regarding relationships, I just need someone who will tell me some useful information. I'm tired of hearing "Get out there, you'll meet someone who's right for you" and the rest of that BS, I think to myself "What is this, a ****ing e-harmony commercial?" I have met girls. The issue is the fact that when I do I'M LOST!

It's gotten to the point where it's so irritating that It's time to do something about it. I mean, Jesus, I know that women like a well dressed man. I can't afford to dress that way though! No, I'm not about to confirm to the latest haircuts and fashion trends just to get attention from women.
Those are usually the ones I don't want anything to do with past "you know what".

Even if I did that and met them the problem still exist, I get lost from that point on. It's not as if I have terrible social skills, it's just that I have issues with women. I get more useful advice from a friend.
She points out the positive aspects of my personality, and that's helped me focus and improve the best parts of me.

So, after seeing someone 4 years or close to it, it's time to change T's.

Excuse my rant, it's just very irritating. I'm also mad right now because if I had my skills better developed then there would be a much bigger chance of me holding onto the girl I have an interest in now.

My concern is that I've just tripped up one to many times and now it's all gone to hell.

Who knows anymore? I sure don't!