no-one who's way down can do it alone but neither can they think that someone else can help them all alone either.

i realized some time ago that there's no treatment that's going to solve my problems completely without some tradeoff. i could either sit back and keep wondering why it doesn't change or realize that i had a problem with the way i expected help to come.

I think you should get over to the introduction forum here and read some introductory posts by new members. And then take a minute to welcome them. get out of your own head for a bit and hear someone else. no i'm not damning you with selfishness so don't read that into it. Just listen to the rest of the scenes that exist. You have insight...use it for a few moments to respond to someone who might be having a tough time...doesn't have to be a revelation. Say hi and welcome...use your judgement which you likely have enough of...and say a kind thing or two.

No it's no exercise or anything corny. But give something...drag yourself out of you and give...just for the *uc* of it. You have experiences you've shared with us somewhat but you can use them to relate to someone else who might need the help as well.

If you can't right now that's ok...but think about doing that somewhere here at some point. It's not for you it's for someone else. After a while it might be a help to you too. bathony...don't get piszed...i don't like to hear people in a pit.