Hi again,
Well I swallowed my pride, fear of rejection, whatever and saw him that weekend. We had a nice dinner with good conversation and followed it with a movie at his urging. He was jokingly giving me grief for not having seen The Avengers when he's already seen it 10+ times. It was nice to spend time with him without any hidden expectations. The guy I once knew is still in there but he's very well hidden by admitted arrogance and I think some past hurts. I am however a little disappointed in myself for not bringing up the way he treated me previously and how his lack of concern for my feelings really hurt me. Anyway the evening ended on a good positive note with an embrace and him telling me to take care of me FIRST and enjoy myself. I walked away without that pang of regret and disappointment of not getting more out of him. If I was delusional, I'd think he actually cared about me deep down somewhere. But I've accepted reality and the fact that I want something that I can never have, with him anyway. If he ever wants that too, he knows where I am and how to find me. As it stands now we will only ever be "friends", and I am learning to accept my place, and my CHOICE to go with it or not. Thanks for the good vibes. ((hugs))