I'm sorry to confuse you. What I meant by support is any kind of help people can offer me about what I should say/do while talking to the doctor. I've been hiding my issues for over four years, so taking steps like this frighten me immensely and cause huge amounts of anxiety. I do not want treatment, medication, or therapy. I've tried two therapists and it does not fit me, I don't have the right personality type for that. I'm too introverted to just sit down and speak to people like that. And medication scares me half to death. I don't want to change who I am.

Well, my doctor has already told me that I have depression and anxiety. But I have many problems that are not diagnosed. I have hallucinations (both auditory and visual), extreme paranoia, restrictive eating, and some other things too.

I'm just really worried that the doctor is going to put me in treatment or convince my mom that I need treatment even though I really don't need nor want it.

I'm just tired of facing everyday not knowing. But I'm worried because I just now got my mom to understand that therapy is not right for me (she agrees though that I should not go on medication unless absolutely, positively necessary) and I'm worried that the doctor will change her mind.

I'm also terrified of a diagnosis. But excited. I'm just very anxious to have to talk about some of this stuff with the doctor. As I've said, I've been hiding these things for over four years and it is not easy for me to open up about.