you didn't offend me Bashful, I was just pointing out that it wasn't true, what you were saying although I appreciate the thought and the intent. I know I'm not doing great right now. I know I'm just proving him right, my ex-T, that I can't handle my own emotions. I said it was because of the drugs but obviously it's not. I hate that he was ****ing right about me AND I hate that he left me because of it.

Also I have to admit that another reason I'm not doing great is 'cause I did do stuff. I'm trying not to do too much. But I'm using some of the bad coping skills at the same time I'm trying the good ones.

Thank you all for caring about it. I cried reading some of your posts. I'm really glad to have known and met you all. Thank you so much. I hope you know how much it means to me.