I'm sorry Sally. I didn't mean to criticize even though yeah it really sounded like it didn't it? I guess I have been doing what you said though (shooting people down). I'm trying not to. I am taking advice here. I did the ice cube thing. I did go outside and take the dog for a walk. I sat on the front steps of the building for awhile and looked at the night sky and the people walking by. I tried breathing. I am trying. Really really really.