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I think I'm just going to use this thread as a "journal" type when I'm at work... You don't have to read, I just need to flipping vent or something. It's all too overwhelming sometimes!
I think I need to vent or something. I feel so much building up right now. I'm getting a migraine from it. I literally feel like my chest is going to explode. I am so angry. I am so hurt. I am so frustrated. I am so tired. I am so embarrassed. I just want to find a way back to numb now. Find my way back to just moving forward, even if I'm not back to my "old self" I just want to find a way to move. Not be stuck in this darkness. I need out!
I need to scream. I want to hurt them. But that's not me. I never want to hurt anyone. But I could really go crazy on them right now. I just want to yell "Eeeefffff you!!!!!!!" to everyone that's hurt me to cause me to be in this hole. I need better coping skills. This obviously is not working. But really is there any hope for getting over this? If words can't heal a broken heart, they certainly can't heal a broken mind! DID aside, I'm so broken. I'm shattered. I'm useless and I blame them. Each and every one
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
Last edited by PurpleFlyingMonkeys; Jun 10, 2012 at 09:50 PM.
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