Wow... I can relate to so much of what everyone said.

@Stormy - Not sure of triggers, I'll start watching for them, though. I know that lately I've been feeling very exposed, very raw, very vulnerable, so I guess it makes sense it's happening more?

@WePow - Yes - it's as if I am watching myself. I feel like my mind floated away and I'm actually observing what's going on instead of experiencing it. It scares the crap out of me.

@stopdog - How do you know if you've lost time? I don't know if I do or not. Great. Another worry!

@honeybun - the bubble is such an accurate description - I've used that phrasing before! You also explained why I've been having such a hard time hanging on to things T says during my appointment - I swear, I get into my car and I forget everything we just talked about. I used to be able to remember it long enough to journal when I got home, now I don't even hold it long enough to journal in my car before I leave.

@SarahMichelle - The wavy is a good description too. I feel that way as I'm sinking into it. Ironically, I've experienced bits and pieces of dissociation since I was a little kid, I just didn't know it had a name until recently.

@MKAC - Wow. I didn't realize there were so many ways of dissociating. That makes me wonder if I've done it more than I realize.

Ugh. Thanks everyone, as anxious and scared as I am, I feel a lot less alone!