Thanks camping. Yea it sucks lately. He's been so manic past few days, stole my car last night (even though I hide the keys) and got paranoid about cops, parked the car illegally and lost it! Then he wandered a bad part of town all night... with no shoes on. I had to report him missing, wouldn't be a weekend without something like this. Took me an hour driving around with my mom to find the car, we finally found it, it's been side swiped and is messed up but driveable. And more importantly found my son, and he is finally asleep now for the first time in days.

We were at pdoc on Thursday and it was a good meeting, lots of tears. You're right this BP is brutal! I'm so worried about if he will ever get to live a good life, if he'll ever be able to take care of himself. I've got a BPII dx and it's nothing compared to what he deals with which is saying a lot cuz BPII is not fun. I'm hoping that it will get better for him when he gets out of these teenage years.

And there's only so much we can do... I remember being that age and nobody could tell me anything. They have to buy into wanting to get help for them to really get help. And now that he's sleeping after the manic episode, there's a strong likelihood he could have a bad depression, I'm worried. But trying to stay strong.

So about the klonopin, he takes 3 a day. And honestly I wish I had something stronger to give him when he's really agitated and needing relief from the mania. But it's hard to get anything stronger. Benzos are so addictive and dangerous so the docs don't like to prescribe them too much.

Thanks so much for the thoughts and prayers, right back at ya We need to stick together and help each other and will find answers somehow!