I am not sure if I have offended you are not. If I did, it was not my intention. The things, I have written are for thought, not to tell you what to do. They may not even apply to you. I don’t know.
I see so much of my younger self in your posts. Navigating life has extremely difficult, especially when I was younger. Anger was my baseline mood. It gets better.
“My ability to think critically and outside the box I think are positive qualities of mine and I am not ashamed of them. If society chooses to treat me badly and ostracize me for the differences that make me who I am, than it is not I that has failed, it is society.”
I agree. Difference needs to be accepted, even embraced. Until society accepts AS or anyone who is different, I think the only way to survive is to find your own distinct place within it. In it, you can be who you really are and happy at the same time.
AS=Loyal, honest, dependable, observant, creative, sensitive, empathic, integrity, intelligent, and freedom from prejudice. Feel free to add more.
Nonverbal communication is very misleading, so I don't rely on it. People tend to misinterpret it, anyway. Even their own moods can influence their judgement.
All this communication stuff is fairly new to me. I have been learning about this, because I have found my calling. I really want to succeed and be happy. In order for this to happen, I must have some ability to communicate in the NT world, because they are majority. It sounds sad and that I am conforming to them, but I am not. I have to bend slightly to make this work.
Eye contact is a part of Western culture. There are many cultures that consider eye contact offensive or too intimate.
People claim to see more than the surface when they look into one's eyes. I see eyes, their color and unique characteristics.
Society and human interaction baffles me, as well. Well, that is enough preaching.